My son was born 4 months premature in February. He lived for 45 minutes and then died on my chest. I tried to force myself to stop the contractions but My body failed him. I failed him. And now night after night I can’t sleep. I sometimes stay awake until early hours of the morning thinking about him. Some nights I’m too exhausted by the lack of sleep so fall asleep by 11pm.
Tonight I am struggling. I can’t stop thinking about him and hoping he was still safe inside me where he belongs. I have yet another headache and am feeling nauseous and can’t stop crying but I just can’t sleep.
I know the pain won’t go away but does this lack of sleep ever get better? How do I cope, how do you/have you coped?
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Greentrees33 · 30/05/2020 01:37
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