In october last year my DH died , he had been unwell for a few weeks but still ok to work until two days before he died .
We worked together .
The day he died he was awake and a bit pale but ok , he stayed in bed when i went to work ( not surprising as I leave home at 5am ) .
I got home at 6.30pm to find him naked and dead on our bedroom floor , I think he may of got up to use the toilet and . . . . . . god I dont know !
This was the most horrible / scary / frightening / upsetting and confusing time of my life I wanted to throw myself down the stairs so I did not have to cope with it .
I did not . I phoned the ambulance and then my brother , the paramedic confirmed he had been dead 'for some time ' . Because he died at home the police had to be called. my brother was with me when they came they were sympathetic but it was so hard to answer their questions.
The undertakers came at about midnight to see DH been taken away in a bodybag was more than I could take , I wanted to scream but my voice would not work .
My brother stayed with me until the early hours but I asked him to leave as I need some time to take everything in.
In the following days and weeks all of my family have been great and very supportive as has my boss , I took some time off work but found been at home alone meant that I just sat in self pity and I started drinking far to much so I went back to work after a month . Bit by bit I have managed to start to function at work again but the evenings and weekends are still very hard to cope with,
Because DH died at home there had to be a corners inquest, this took a unbelievable 6 months, I got the results early last week .
this has just put me right back to square one .
I can not stop crying I miss him so much , we should of celebrated his 60th and our 10th wedding anniversary in march .
I have to go to register his death on Monday , I don't want to do it.
I do not know how I am going to carry on .
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Angie169 · 14/04/2018 20:53
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