Need a hug and a handhold

[JaceLancs]

My cousin died this morning it was sudden n sooner than we thought but not unexpected (pancreatic cancer)
He didn’t have anyone else apart from me and DB close by so we’ve been visiting and helping and sorting since Xmas when it all sorted
Hospital rang at 8.30 to say he was failing fast but by time we got there it was too late
Obviously lots of things to do......
It was my birthday yesterday n DP and I had booked a long weekend away - which couldn’t be cancelled so came anyway
DP not well and it was a long drive so got to hotel n he just crashed out
I’m sat here on my own and just can’t stop crying - wish I had stayed at home in familiar place
Probably go home in morning - I think I’m still in shock
It just reminds me of everyone I’ve ever lost before, everyone I expect to lose (v elderly parents) and my own mortality
Thanks for listening - even typing that helped a tiny bit

[SinceWhenDid]

Lost my dad recently the same way. Like you said expected but sooner and sudden.

Big hugs from me. Xxx

[JaceLancs]

Thank you Since x so sorry for your loss - sending hugs back to you xx

[Dangerousmonkey]

I lost a cousin on Wednesday. Very different circumstances but I can relate to your feeling of all those lost before.
Hugs x