Hi there
I guess I just wondered if anyone had had a similar experience and how they got through it?
My darling Dad, who I was very close to, lost a very valiant battle with a horrible cancer, AML, last May. I'm part of a large family and we're all struggling. My Mum almost immediately decided she didn't want to live in the house and put in on the market and at the time, we all agreed with it as I don't think anyone was in the right frame of mind to have the energy to object.
It's taken a long time but she's finally found a buyer and long story short we're going to the house this weekend to clear it out. My Dad is buried in the churchyard of the village and although it wasn't where I grew up, I feel an incredibly strong attachment to it as my parents owned the house for 20 years and we had lots of lovely family occasions there, birthdays, Christmas's etc. My Dad in particular loved it there - the house and the village itself.
I thought I was okay with it all, but actually I've found in the last week I can't sleep and just feel totally sick with the thought of going there and dismantling our family home. It feels like such a betrayal of my Dad, and also the thought of not having a home in the place where he is buried gives me the most desperate feeling of just abandoning him.
I've tried to talk to my Mum about it but to be honest she's not really dealing with her own grief very well and is not in a good place (won't see counsellor or anything). She said financially she can't afford to keep the house, the mortgage life is coming to an end and that no-one goes there anyway. It's true to say that as a family (I'm one of 5 siblings) none of us had been there really very much since the funeral, but that's more through grief than anything else.
To put it in some sort of context, after a very long battle , my husband and I finally had a baby 5 months before my Dad died, so we now have a gorgeous 15 month old little girl who I'd always dreamed of playing in the garden. I spent years watching my nieces and nephews there, dreaming of one day doing the same with my own child and now it'll never happen.
I don't think the decision can be reversed now with regard to selling the house but just wondered how anyone else has coped with sorting through possessions, dismantling the home, deciding what to keep etc, with this unbearable grief hanging over you? I just don't know how to do it and the thought if it at the moment is breaking my heart
Thanks so much for reading
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MrsGAT · 22/03/2018 17:40
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