This is my first post so please be gentle. My mum passed two weeks ago very very suddenly. She was just 57 (would of been 58 tomorrow) I was with her as she got out the shower and complained she had pain. Mum just collapsed and stop breathing. I have cpr until the ambulance came but it didn’t work. Turns out it was heart disease which mum nor me had any idea.
So that was two weeks ago. I had a few minutes of crying but that’s it. I have been very very busy. With organising the funeral, meeting with accountants, pro bate solicitors, bank manager etc. You see we run a medium size family business and it’s been none stop. I’m working most nights even over Christmas as I have 30 odd staff to look after.
My dad died 3 years ago aged just 63 with 6 month battle with Leukaemia.
So now my problem is I feel normal. Like nothing has happened. I even managed the eulogy Without a tear yesterday. It’s not like I wasn’t close to my mum. We was together nearly everyday. We worked together and I even moved next door to her a few years ago and spent most nights round there. She was my best friend. Everyone is saying how strong I’ve been but I really wish I could cry. I don’t feel anything. Nothing at all.
Am I normal or am I a monster.
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HidingInTheBathroom · 29/12/2017 00:00
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