Please help.
MiL is dying. She has been very sick for a long time, but we’re pretty sure it’s close to the end now. She has somewhere between days and weeks left. DH is not coping. I know it’s because of his mum – he’s normally lovely, but I know he’s out of cope. We live in a different country to his family but have been flying home once a month for the weekend. Right now he’s under huge pressure from his family to go home until the end. He wants to, and he wants me to go with him for emotional support but I don’t have the annual leave to do this and my work say this isn’t an appropriate use of compassionate leave – I can have a day for the funeral and that’s all I’m able to do. They’ve offered me unpaid leave but we can’t afford to have us both off work unpaid for long.
I have said I understand if he goes without me, and I can cover us both financially for a short time (he would also be on unpaid leave) but this seems to have gone down badly and he literally hasn’t spoken to me beyond an angry monosyllable for the last 32 hours. He’s this horrible black hole of misery and won’t eat unless food is placed in front of him, sits on the sitting room floor staring into space, not even turning on the lights in the evening, ignores DD and just isn’t there.
I’m having to do everything, and I’m not coping.
I know she isn’t my mum, but I’ve known this lovely woman since I was 15 and I’m devastated by this too. I also have a history of mental illness (bipolar disorder) and I’ve been quite unwell lately. Right now, getting out of bed is incredibly hard work and I’ve had to crawl up the stairs because I’m giddy with panic and can’t stand. I have to pretend I’m fine for work, DD, and I have to somehow manage house and finances and I’m close to collapse.
This isn’t normal for us. It isn’t the normal we’ve had for years. It’s only been this way for the last two weeks, getting massively worse this week. It’s because of this awful horrible time but I’m not sure how we can get through it. Should I try and borrow money from my family so I can afford to take unpaid leave and we all go back to our home country? What should I do? I’m trying to pull myself together and be this tower of strength but it’s so hard. I could about cope until he stopped talking to me.
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Magpie1778 · 09/11/2017 10:39
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