I recently lost a very much loved relative. She was very ill and elderly so it wasn't a shock in that respect; however she passed much quicker than expected. She had a very peaceful passing and we all got to say our goodbyes.
Ever since I was a little girl, I have dreaded this person passing. The sheer thought of it has made me cry, and in her final days, I cried constantly.
However, since she has gone...I have acted very differently to how I anticipated. I have been to work; smiled when I've thought of her; had normal conversations; got on with life....
It feels like it's too easy and I'm shocked at myself for just getting on with things. I do have a little cry every day, but then I pick myself up and carry on.
This is the first close family member I have lost, and I'm just wondering of this is normal. Am I grieving properly ? Will it catch up with me ?
My other family members have a similar feeling. Although everybody is very sad, nobody seems "broken". Some of us can be quite hysterical so it's not usual behaviour from any of us. It just feels strange.
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jaykay34 · 08/08/2017 23:48
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