I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS
My Mum passed away suddenly but peaceful this morning at 2am. She had fought dementia for the last 15yrs.
My dd died 20mths ago. She was 23.
We never told mum dd had died. She would ask about dd and talk about her in the Present tense I would never correct her because (A) she wouldn't remember and (B) I found it comforting in a strange way.
I don't feel anything, i haven't cried, and I couldn't get out the Care home quick enought this morning. I went home with DH and my siblings all went to my Brother's house I ended up sitting in the cemetery at 7am this Morning thinking WTF Is wrong with me.
I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS
I CAN'T GO TO ANOTHER FAMILY MEMBERS FUNERAL
The last time i was in that Chapel they were carrying My Beautiful DD out in a coffin and I've NEVER been back.
I love my mum so much but, i can't do this.
I feel such a horrible person, My mum has died and all i can think about is she will get to see Dd again.
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cocochanel21 · 04/08/2017 21:28
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