I found out today that my sister and best friend has days to live.
I’m devastated. I’m also stupidly angry, which I know is unreasonable, but I just want to rage at the world. I’ve been reading Facebook and MN and I keep wanting to post stupid angry posts screaming at people for caring about parking, or bad traffic, or the quality of their sandwiches today when they are alive, and their loved one are alive and how the hell does that stuff even matter?
I know if course it matters. I care about little things too and I know as well I’m being unsympathetic (silently, inside) about big painful things too – I wanted to yell at a friend of mine for bitching about ex, even though I know her heartbreak matters too. But I’m just so angry.
Please help me calm down. I have to be on good form for the hospital tonight and then I’ve got to be nice for the next few weeks. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way – god knows, my sister wouldn’t ask this of me. She’s one of the loveliest, gentlest people I’ve ever known. I’m being horrible and I don’t know why.
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NotReallyMeToday · 13/04/2017 14:37
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