My Dad died the day before yesterday. He had just turned 59. He died from
pneumonia.
I can't stop thinking about his last breaths. I've been trying to research online to make more sense of it but can't.
Basically as he was passing he made a gasp for breath twice. He didn't seem distressed but I'm wondering was this just an automatic body response for more breath or was he actively trying to breathe. I know it's probably the first but i just can't stop thinking and seeing it in my head I'm so upset thinking that he might have been scared or trying to hold on.
I also feel guilt. He couldn't really talk but he managed to tell me he knew he was dying and that he wanted to come home and die surrounded by his family. We spoke to the nurse and the palliative team had planned to discuss it with us but we never got the time. The nurse did say that she apologised to him that she couldn't grant his wish which I thought was really sweet.
Just wanted to get it off my chest I guess. Thanks for listening.
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nowayjose1 · 14/01/2017 18:16
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