I am a regular poster here but would prefer to keep this as private as possible.
My mother died in hospital a few days ago and I hadn't seen her for around 2 months before she died. She had been through a very traumatic experience (a loved one died) a few months before she died, but because we have had a family argument going on for many years, I was unable to deal with or empathise with the trauma she was experiencing.
I loved her and wanted to look after her, but feel that I have let her down and that if I had pulled her out of hospital where she may have received better care I could have saved her.
My siblings were not around to help her (one was abroad and the other not as concerned as me over her ongoing health problems) I am the youngest but feel the most desparate and distraught. I can not even deal with having to see her grave.
I watched the life sapping out of her for the last few days before she died in hospital (she was on life support) and can not put the images of her out of my mind.
I have been having panick attacks and worry about the anxiety and guilt that I may be feeling for the rest of my life.
I have a toddler and feel I need help.
Please give me some advice.
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lonelyandsad · 17/02/2007 14:12
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