ds1 ws stillborn at 32 weeks gestation on 2nd Jan 2002. Since then I have had ds2 who is 4, and dd who is 16mo. They are beyond fab but at this time of year I always have a bit of a slump.
We've had a nice day today, devoted to ds1, and have done lots of nice things for him. My ds2 sang an impropmtu happy birthday to him at his grave, which only made me smile. Lots of people have remembered us today (thanks to my MN friends who sent me messages) and it has been as nice a day as it could have been really.
But I feel so hollow. Every year I realise, again, that this is forever, and I will be sad forever. Not all the time, as I have a great happy time with ds2 and dd. But every year it seems to get harder, the fact that I am another year further away from him. I remember his birth like it was yesterday. I knew he had gone, but was so happy and proud to see and hold him.
Sorry for rambling on, am on my own and feeling sad, and just wanted to share my lovely son with you.
Happy Birthday Joseph xxx
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