Two loses this year, but of people I hadn't seen in a long time, I don't know how I feel.

[Pipbin]

I had two friends die this year.
One suddenly collapsed. He had been a good friend but we had drifted apart when he moved to a different town. I could have gone to the funeral but I didn't feel it was right.
The other was a friend from student days. I had been back in touch last year via social media but I hadn't seen him in about 20 years. I suddenly thought of him one day and noticed that his twitter feed was very quiet. I googled him to find that he had taken his own life at the beginning of the year.

I don't know how to feel about this. I feel that I have no right to grieve as I hadn't seen either of them for years.

I don't expect any answers or responses, I just wanted to air my feelings.

[Ludoole]

Loss is loss... If you feel pain then you should acknowledge it. X

[ovenchips]

I agree with above poster. But also the other way round too - if you are not feeling anything strongly it may be because you aren't actually feeling very affected. After all, they were not a part of your life now. Which is fine too.