My husbands funeral is on Tuesday. 10 days before Christmas...
I dont want to celebrate it. I dont want to see anyone. I just want to be on my own.
I have put a 'front' on for my family and friends since he died 11 days ago, and its getting harder to keep it up.
My eldest son, 15, is happy to go to his biological fathers house for Christmas but my 12 yo wants to stay with me.
I want him to have a good Christmas and i think he would with his dad and brother but he is refusing to go.
If he stays home i wont be able to let my barrier down. I want to spend the day listening to my husbands voice on the cds he made me and hopefully it will release the big rock that i feel is sitting on my chest.
I suppose im being completely selfish but i havent had time to let anything out since he died, and im so close to imploding.
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Ludoole · 13/12/2015 21:15
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