I've name changed for this.
In June it will be 2 years since my DS2's father committed suicide. We weren't together anymore but he saw DS regularly.
I'm still so, so angry with him. He's left me to cope totally alone. I'm solely responsible for making every decision re DS. And now it's compounded by the fact that it's looking increasingly likely that DS has SNs.
DS is still young (he was a baby when his dad died) but I dread the day I have to explain.
I also feel guilty. The split was hard and we were both pretty horrible to each other. And then something terrible happened which was probably the proverbial straw. I can't talk about what happened because it was in the media and included in a documentary last year (hence the name change). But I wonder, if I hadn't been so horrible to him, would he have been able to cope with what happened?
I still can't believe he did it. I still can't quite grasp that he no longer exists. And I can't believe he didn't think of either of us and the effect it would have on us for the rest of our lives.
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ThisIsMyNameToday · 04/04/2015 23:04
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