This summer I miscarried twice in consecutive cycles. The mcs were very different, probably unrelated and despite having also had a mc before having ds, I am fundamentally optimistic that I will be able to have a successful pg in the future. Emotionally I'm also beginning to feel on a more even keel, and I know that I would like to be, and feel up to being, pg again soon.
Anyway, I got my first period since the last mc last week and am now entering my fertile time as per my usual cycle. For whatever reason, I've found myself, over the last few days, making a desperate dilemma out of whether to 'ttc' this month or not (I say 'ttc' because it would really only amount to not using contraception, but I do seem to get pg very quickly - my conceptions have been on 2nd, 3rd, 1st and 1st cycle respectively). Rationally I know myself that making such an issue out of one cycle (we definitely plan to start ttc next cycle) is silly, but it still seems to huge dilemma for me right now. I can't help thinking that if we left it this time and subsequently found we could not conceive again, or conceived and (God forbid) mc again, I would be forever wondering what would have happened if we had tried this cycle... I'm not sure, with my history, whether I can afford to pass up any 'chance'. OTOH the thought of conceiving this cycle and mc again is too much to bear - I'm sure that at some level I would blame myself (which I certainly didn't do last time, despite not having waited at all). Anyway, I'm really really stuck on this, have been going over and over it for days and not got anywhere, however sternly and rationally I've told myself off about it... so any thoughts would be very welcome. Thank you.
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