My mum died today

[Cuddlycarole]

I'm feeling numb , I've cried the day my mum was ina home , she had dementia and she knew me but seeing her today she did not as she was asleep and died of pneumonia . I loved her so much and it hurts but I cannot cry anymore I have cried buckets as every time I left the home , I lost the phone calls the chats we us to have my mum had vascular dementia, I'm not sure what this meant but she knew me but conversation wasn't the same .
Yes no how's the family and that was it. I loved her I have grieved and still will grieve many months . I have this ache in my chest . I miss her every day.

[wickedlazy]

Sorry for you loss

[ImperialBlether]

I'm so sorry, Carole. It must be really awful. Take care of yourself.

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[Gunpowder]

I'm so sorry OP. Losing your mum must be so hard.

[pearlgirl]

So sorry for your loss.

[Gilmore830]

So sorry for your loss!

[Rainicorn]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[Knicknacks84]

I'm really sorry for your loss. I hope you have friends and family to support you in RL

[whatisforteamum]

so sorry for your loss and the fact your lovely Mum had dementia.Look after yourself xx

[Liondemer]

Sorry for your loss. My mum died almost 2 years ago. It's horrible. I think of her every day and I miss her terribly but the initial hurt and pain does get better.
Be kind to yourself.

[QOD]

So sorry for your.loss

[Merriboo]

I'm so sorry for your loss [flower]

[crazykat]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I lost my mam to cancer a year ago. She was like her normal self until the last two weeks when she went downhill fast. Up until that last two weeks we'd talk on the phone every day like normal, then she started forgetting things we'd said the day before. The last week she couldn't talk much, it was heartbreaking.

I still go to pick up the phone to speak to her.

It sounds trite but it will get better slowly. That black hole in your chest will get smaller and not be so all consuming. Take one minute at a time and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Do you have someone to talk to in rl?

[DancingDinosaur]

I'm so sorry Cuddlycarole