My Mum died in April from breast cancer that had spread to her brain. She was given the all clear the previous October and was admitted to hospital 5 days before she died.
I am so angry ...... She visited the doctors 7 times, went to a and e twice and had an ambulance crew out in the space of 4 weeks. She was diagnosed with a virus and urine infection. The consultant told us that microscopic cancer cells imbedded in the brain and lay dormant for a few months before she even had the lump removed last year:( so she had no chance.
She was my best friend, spoke everyday and I told her everything and I feel a part of me is dead now.
I can't get the picture of my lovely mum writhing in pain, and I can't stop thinking of when she told us all that there was nothing more that can be done and she was going to die. She was so brave and said she wasn't scared only sad that she would miss all especially her grandchildren.
It feels like a bad joke. How on earth am I supposed to do this without her? My heart hurts, I have constant panic attacks and can't sleep. Sorry for rambling, hope it makes sense.
It felt good to get it out a bit.
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MidnightButterfly81 · 20/09/2014 21:55
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