she had cancer and died 2.5 yrs ago but i still miss her. i feel guilty as my mum and cousins have real reason to feel realky sad. she was lovely. i miss she never met my ds. everyone says i look just like her. i miss her in my lifebut cant really tell anyone.
I don't think you should ever feel your feelings count for less because of some family hierarchy. You were close that's what matters. Nice that you resemble her. I am sure you have pictures of her and stories about her you can tell DS when he's old enough. And if you live near where she's buried you can leave a little token any time of year not just anniversaries.