Not a thread I thought I'd need to post for a long while yet.
My dad had end stage copd and lived in hospital but I thought he would still have at least a year left. But on Saturday I got the call to go and be with him as he was struggling. He held on til early hours of Monday.
I was with him all day Sunday through to 2am when I felt really ill and started swelling up. I'm 32 weeks pregnant. The nurses said they'd wanted to send me home hours ago, so I went home but only an hour later they called to say come back. He had gone by the time I got there.
I feel awful I wasn't holding his hand as he went, but a big part of me thinks (knows) he waited for me to leave before he could go. He was like that - never wanted to worry me :)
I'm just so up and down just now. My kids are 7 and 3 and I think are still too young to grasp what's happened. My mum died 12 years ago so they know about heaven but have never actually 'lost' someone before. They won't be attending the cremation but I thought they could come to the wake?
And my baby boy is due on the 10th of December which is my dads birthday. He was so looking forward to seeing him.
God this post is huge sorry! Just feel like I'm holding it all together for the kids and my husband so he doesn't worry about me. Crying one minute, fine the next.
My poor wee dad :(
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weechops · 10/10/2013 15:36
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