Struggling

[98percentchocolate]

In the last 6 months I've lost three members of my family and another is in the last few days/weeks of his life according to the Macmillan nurses.
I'm really struggling. It seems as though every time I start to feel a bit better I lose someone else.
I'm on 100mg of sertraline daily but finding it difficult at the moment waiting to lose a fourth person that I love. I'm eating a little but find I have no appetite and am losing weight. I don't want to get out of bed in the morning and am finding myself asking "who next?".
I just don't really know what to do. I know I'll feel a little better in time but right now I just can't get passed that gut wrenching ache in my stomach.

[Jjcrackers]

I'm so sorry to hear this. No words of advice but just sending a hug.

[98percentchocolate]

Thank you Jj - a hug is exactly what I need right now.

[beachyhead]

Maybe you could talk to Macmillian or Cruse... They will have specialists who will understand the pain you are feeling.

A hug from here too... >

[telsa]

How bruised and hopeless you must be feeling. I think others are right...being able to talk to someone, such as Cruse, about it all would surely help. How tough it has been for you. I wish you strength and peace.

[SauceForTheGander]

I'm so sorry. You've had a huge amount of grief to handle.

Sending another hug.

[98percentchocolate]

Thank you so much. It helps to talk about it. I don't like to talk about it much because I'm very aware that my family are also experiencing this. I don't want them to think that my grief is worse than theirs if you see what I mean?
Will definitely give curse a call, thank you.

[98percentchocolate]

*cruse - autocorrect fail!

[SauceForTheGander]

Find someone to talk to. Friends, GP etc. and remember being like this is very appropriate and normal response to the grief and losses you've experienced.

[Joy5]

Just wanted to say, cruse have helped me enormously in the past 8 years.

My Dad died followed 12 weeks later by my Grandmother, then 3 years later my son died suddenly, so not in as short a space of time as you, but understand your feelings of 'who next' and how hard it is to come to turns with. Also know how hard it is to talk to other relatives who are grieving too.

All i can say from my experience is take all the help you can, Cruse were fantastic, but know they struggle for funding and have waiting lists for face to face counselling but look at their website www.cruse.org.uk theres also online and telephone counselling too. They also have their own books too.

Sending another hug to you, bereavement is one of the hardest things in that no one grieves the same, so its so hard to be helpful to someone whos struggling with it, but be nice to yourself, take things easy, its takes an awful long time to recover from the death of one person you're close too, so when its multiplied its obviously even longer. xxx