I miss my friend

[darksideofthemooncup]

A year ago today my lovely friend killed herself leaving two beautiful children and a loving husband. I am not angry with her as so many people seem to think I should be, I am just so sad that after all we had been through and all the shit I had seen her through that she didn't ask me for help.
I can't bear to think that she thought we would all be better off without her.
I want her back

[louschmoo]

So sorry darkside :(. There isn't anything to say that makes it better, I know.

[louschmoo]

Sometimes people in the depths of despair just aren't capable of asking for help. Your friend will have known on some level that she was loved, and that you were there for her.

[darksideofthemooncup]

Thank you for responding, I can't explain to anyone in RL about how I feel and I am sure that I failed her in some way. She messaged me a few weeks before she killed herself and told me how happy and sorted she was. I should have known

[Looster]

My friend also took her life last year, leaving 2 lovely children. I was the last person to see her and the person to find her

I understand your sadness. Sending you a hug

[darksideofthemooncup]

Thank you Looster I can't imagine how hard that was for you. Sending you a hug right back.

[darksideofthemooncup]

It feels taboo to talk about it too, but I so want to talk about it

[BettySwollocksandaCrustyRack]

So sorry darkside

My lovely BIL hanged himself 7 weeks ago leaving lots of unanswered questions. We wish he had asked for help, we didn't even know he was suffering.

Hugs xx

[louschmoo]

Hi darkside, sorry for leaving the thread for ages. How are you feeling today? Death is such a taboo subject, it's hard to know how to deal with it as a bereaved person, or as a friend of the bereaved. If it would make you feel better why don't you tell us a bit more about what your friend was like? I know that when I'm missing my mum (she died unexpectedly many years ago) it helps to talk about her, even if it's painful.

Betty - so sorry about your brother in law. I hope you are bearing up okay :(.

[Blondeshavemorefun]

darkside, looser and betty - my heart goes out to you all - losing someone you loved is hard but when suicide is also added to the equation then a whole lot of different emotions appear