I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

[TrinityRhino]

its like a nightmare that I'm not waking up from
I cant stop it

[PerfumedPonce]

I'm so sorry. What an awful thing to happen. Cannot imagine how you are feeling. Have you got support at home?

[HappyJustToBe]

Hand to hold. Do you have anyone with you?

[AKissIsNotAContract]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Sending you a hug.
Can you get some counselling?

[DottyDot]

Oh God Trinity no.... I'm so, so sorry. Have you got anyone with you?

[onceipopicantstop]

Hi Trinity I'm so so sorry for your loss. Are you on your own? Is there anyone you can call to come over?

[hellhasnofurylikeahungrywoman]

What an awful thing to experience, have you got someone with you? My heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your loss.

[TrinityRhino]

dd1 is here but my friend had to go home to her dog first thing this morning

dd2 and gecko are with my neighbour
close friends of ours and the littluns chose to stay over last night

purplepillow is coming over later but her mum is still in hospital and she needs to see her first

[usualsuspect]

Trinity, I'm so so sorry.

Have you got someone with you?

[ClaimedByMe]

Aww trinity, I can't think if anything to say :( keep posting if it helps xx

[D0GWithAYoni]

Oh Trinity I'm so so sorry for you. I wish I could do something.

[FreddieMisaGREATshag]

Oh god I'm so sorry.

[WhereMyMilk]

Oh Trin, how awful for you. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family,x

[Sparklingbrook]

Trinity I am so, so sorry. x

[Madamecastafiore]

You probably won't want to but do you think you could call the emergency out of hours GP to come and give you something just to get you through this immediate aftermath?

Do you have help there with you now? Where are you in the country?

Am so sorry this has happened, big hug and hand hold.

[Tiredtrout]

I'm so sorry trinity, that's just a terrible thing to have happen

[BranchingOut]

So sorry, how awful.

You will stop seeing it, but maybe not just yet. Have you slept? Can you get anyone to be with you.

[Indith]

I'm so sorry Trinity.

Well done for keeping your head and doing compressions. You did exactly the right thing and gave him every chance you could.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

[McKayz]

Oh god Trinity, I am so so sorry xx

[CharlieUniformNovemberTango]

Oh Trinity - I'm so desperately sorry you're having to deal with this :(

You need some real life people around you though.

Be kind to yourself - it's going to hurt and there is nothing you can do to stop that this soon so don't waste your time trying to be normal or right just now.

One breath at a time. That's all you need to get through just now xx

[poachedeggs]

Oh Trinity I'm so, so sorry, I can't believe this. You don't know me but I "know" you, and your story. Hang in there, MN is with you.

[LilBlondePessimist]

I'm so so sorry this has happened. I'm here to hold your hand. You must be feeling so raw and shocked. I'm sorry xx

[Madamecastafiore]

Tell us about him. What was he like, where did you meet? What made him laugh?

Think about him as the person and tell us, try to stop focusing on the event of his death and tell us about him.