My nanna passed this morning, i knew it was coming this was the second time she was admitted for a serious chest infection in the last week, i have not seen my nanna for about 3 yrs, the last time i seen her was at my brothers funeral but we didnt speak because she was comforting my "mother".
I used to be close to my nanna when i was younger but having my own family and falling out with my "mother & sister" i kind of just stayed away from all of my family, i also didnt see my borther before he died because my parents didnt tell me he was on his death bed, which is half the reason i will never have anything to do with my parents, not to mention left him to die on his own because my mother is so effing selfish n having such a bad childhood.
I had a phone call last night to say nanna was on her last legs, and i think most ppl would have dropped everything and gone, but i was scared and also felt like i was being a hypocrit because i had not seen her in about 6 or 7 yrs other than the funeral, and nanna being nanna ( like nanna the catherine tate character ) would have said as much because she knew i would have shown my face now she was on her death bed and because i never wanted to bump into my so called mother or sister, now she has died i feel a bit shitty about not going but also i am debating not going to the funeral either because of my so called family.
My partner says go she was your nanna but just sit at the bk but i a really dont think i want to, am i selfish ?
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gobbymare · 28/10/2012 19:33
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