I was 15+2 wks, and had let myself believe that by getting past the first 12 weeks, everything would be just fine. I had a slight bleed on Friday and went to the hospital. The scan showed that the baby's heart had stopped. I couldn't believe my eyes.
I then had a d&c on saturday - however the pessary they gave me worked so well that I passed my baby before they took me in to surgery. I saw the little thing and just wanted to scream. I keep replaying the whole day in my head, every time I close my eyes all I can see is the blood and my poor baby.
I am just in pieces, I keep weeping, I feel a real pain in my heart. It's all very well for people to tell you that it was never meant to be, and nature was taking its course, and I'm not alone, but really none of that helps yet.
Can someone tell me that this pain will pass, that one day I'll feel better? I will never forget my little baby but I need to know that one day, I don't care when, I'll be ok.
I have a perfect 2 year old ds, without him I don't know how I'd cope. My dh is being amazing too. Thanks for letting me write so much, this alone has helped even if no-one writes back.
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lost my baby at the weekend and I'm so sad
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weewilliewinkie · 27/02/2006 09:55
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