I miss my dad

[madasa]

My dad died 5 months ago. I miss him so badly I don't know what to do with myself....

[longlashes]

I am so sorry madasa, I think I talked to you on an earlier thread? I lost my dad four years ago, he was 67 . I actually went to the cemetary today and had a few tears. It is so hard, you just have to work through it. If I could wish my dad back for one more minute I would.
It is just time that will help. 5 months is so, so early. Eventually you get through the days that little bit easier. I still have bad and good days but I look at my family and think I have got to be there for them.
Am so sorry because I know how you feel. One of my friends lost her dh to cancer six years ago at 38 then her son of 18 died last year in an accident. I try to think at least I had my lovely dad for longer than that. Hugs to you xxxxx

[madasa]

Thank you longlashes for your kind words...I'm sorry you lost your dad
Some days are better than others....today is just unbearable

[Springforward]

Years ago a very kind couple gave me a copy of "all in the end is harvest, an anthology for those who grieve" when I lost someone close, and when my mum died I picked it up again. It helped me put words around the terrible aching void at a time when I just didn't know how I could ever move away from it. If reading is your thing, can I recommend it to you (if it isn't of course, feel entirely free to ignore this post).

[longlashes]

Thinking of having a look at that myself Springforward. You are welcome madasa, I just wish I could make it all better for you xx I promise it gets easier, you sort of come to an acceptance, think I am just about getting to that way, and although you may become scared that you might over time, you will never ever forget him xxxxxxxx

[Springforward]

My copy is decidely dog eared now, I go back to it so often.

I don't think you ever stop missing your parents. Dad died when I was 8, but I still had a little cry for him when DS was born 23 years later! I wanted to show him his latest grandson.

[madasa]

Thank you Springforward. I have just looked on Amazon and ordered myself a copy as reading is definitely my thing.

Longlashes I know what you mean about being able to wish them back for just one more minute....but I guess then we'd want another 'one more minute' then another ....

So sorry to hear what your poor friend has gone through...life really is unbearably hard sometimes

[longlashes]

It is, sometimes I think there just has to be a reason for everything. Was going to come on here and see how you are doing today. I see you were up early this morning by your post. Thinking of you xxx

[madasa]

Thank you longlashes
On here early as insomnia is my constant companion last 2 years :)

[longlashes]

Ah bless you madasa. I used to find it hard to sleep, could never settle. I love reading and couldn't finish a book. I couldn't concentrate on a film. I was like this from the day dad got diagnosed until we lost him 18 months later and then for months and months after, though there were better and worse days.
Talking to you has made me realise the different stages I have gone through to get to where I am now and I am sure Dad would be proud of me, as your lovely Dad would be of you.
Just try to take care of yourself as much as you can, I know its hard xx