Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

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lavandes Tue 01-Feb-11 13:43:04

For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

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shabbapinkfrog Tue 01-Feb-11 14:07:36

Thank you Lavendes. Thinking of my precious boys and all our children no longer physically here. xxx

kazmus Tue 01-Feb-11 16:50:00

Sian, my life,my love, my raison d'etre, my precious child. Loving you always, x

lottiejenkins Tue 01-Feb-11 18:11:33

For my lovely Jack xx

frasersmummy Tue 01-Feb-11 18:28:45

lovely title..thinking of my darling eldest Son Fraser.. I cant believe he would be 7 in a few months.. 7!!!

travellingwilbury Tue 01-Feb-11 18:36:04

Harry is here too , would have been 10 now which is just ridiculous . Can't believe he has been gone 9years.

CazandBelle Tue 01-Feb-11 19:22:45

Belle my beautiful girl. Coming up 8 months old little angel x x x

peterpansmum Tue 01-Feb-11 20:02:11

Thinking of my gorgeous wee lad Gregor - his spirit lives on and will always be a part of me. Missing your cheery smile - today and always xxxx

Minione Tue 01-Feb-11 21:13:12

Thanks Lavandes for starting this thread.

For Malachy, love you always x

Hope you are all ok, how you feeling Shabs, I'm sorry to hear about the bad dreams.

We're in the middle of moving house so lots of packing today hence why I've not been around much.

CazandBelle Tue 01-Feb-11 21:25:26

urgh, feeling sick and panicy tonight. Its a while since I felt like this. I think I know why, my pupils funeral is tomorrow morning. secondly I think a member of my staff is starting to cause problems in the background and I really hope I'm wrong because I'm in not fit state to be dealing with it.

Have been feeling really odd about work the last two weeks, my team is different to when I lost Belle and even though I've been back in over half a term now I still don't feel gelled with them, and I really think this is feeding into feeling anxious now. Two of the team have been of on fairly longish sickness' in the time I've been back and a new member of staff joined 2 weeks ago.

Counselling session today was good. She took me right back to the beginning and made me list all the people I'd come into contact with between being told Belle had died and her funeral. We have started using stones/shells to represent them and she's asking me why I've picked what for who and how I feel it represents them at that time. Proper therapy stuff but it seemed to work for me today.

shabbapinkfrog Wed 02-Feb-11 06:45:38

Morning girls xx

hazygirl Wed 02-Feb-11 07:32:11

morning girlsx

kazmus Wed 02-Feb-11 07:41:12

morning ladies x Up since 4am again and feeling urgh! Even the cat thinks I'm going mad.

lavandes Wed 02-Feb-11 08:19:21

Morning ladies xx

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shelleylou Wed 02-Feb-11 10:27:33

Hi ladies... My apologies for not being around have been thinking of you all. RL has crept upon me once again. Brief summery H has agreed to a divorce so will be filing for that in May, he's been getting a bit stroppy with me, I met a NM and had a pregnancy scare which may not be over with yet [hmmm]. My DB and SIL found out she is pg but shes currently having scans and lood tests after bloodloss. The scan the other day showed she wasn't as far gone as we thought and she was told she possibly had twins and miscarried one. Just got to wait for todays blood test then we should all know more.
I really hope it goes well sil and db want this baby sooo much. After all the negative things in my family recently this would be amazing. I would really appreciate it if you could keep them in your thoughts today xxx

AxisofEvil Wed 02-Feb-11 15:17:58

Hi all

Caz - hope the funeral went OK.

Shelleylou - hope it is all OK for your sil and db

frasersmummy Wed 02-Feb-11 18:35:07

hey caz... how was today.. bet you feel like a wrung out sponge tonight ...remember to take time to acknowledge your grief .. if you need tomorrow off you take it .. tell your boss I said it was ok {wink]

I am glad you are finding therapy useful... please dont think I am knocking it.. if its working for you ... great -honestly

But I couldnt cope with shells and stones I would be like what does a stone have to do with my pal turning up with wine and chocolate????.. sometimes I think I'm too literal and thats why counselling doesnt do it for me

Minione Wed 02-Feb-11 18:58:06

Hi Everyone

How you feeling Caz? Glad that the counselling is going well, I'm still on a waiting list hmm I know what you mean about work, tbh I'm pretty pissed off with the place and wish I could just leave. Perhaps I'll win the lottery.

Nice to hear from you Shelley, fingers crossed for your sil and db and hope everything is ok for you too.

ILikeToMoveItMoveIt Wed 02-Feb-11 20:00:26

Thank you for starting this new thread Lavandes.

Thinking of my darling boy Cole, mummy and daddy miss you so much xxx

Apologies for being awol (that's all I ever seem to say when I come on here lately). Am finding things tough at the moment. I have lots of things going on in RL at the mo (pregnancy, extension, voluntary commitments), too much really as I don't seem to have any spare time. It's much the same for poor old dh as well.

All these things going on mean I'm not getting enough sleep, which then leads me to get tired and emotional, and that's when I find it difficult to cope with C not being here with us anymore.

I miss him dreadfully. He should be here with us. It's just not fair.

CazandBelle Wed 02-Feb-11 20:15:01

Thanks for asking after me ladies.

Today has been tough. I think wrung out sponge is a good expression. I was doing ok until the coffin arrived and it was pink and then I melted. I was right back with Belle's tiny pink coffin and have really struggled the rest of the day.

I feel a bit guilty because the entire service my head was elsewhere and I was crying for my girl.

Thank God for my good friend today who has looked after me and held me throughout. I couldn't have got through it without her.

frasersmummy Wed 02-Feb-11 20:26:03

no guilt caz.... of course you were thinking of makes you more in touch with how the parents are feeling

Glad you made it through... I dont know if you drink.. if you do .. go have a well deserved glass of something alcoholic

CazandBelle Wed 02-Feb-11 20:27:25

you read my mind FM - large glass of rose suitably poured!

Minione Wed 02-Feb-11 21:22:01

Oh Caz, I think you're so brave, it must be have been so awful at the little girl's funeral. Her poor parents sad. And you shouldn't feel guilty, you went to the funeral and supported the parents.

Have a drink and be kind on yourself x

shabbapinkfrog Thu 03-Feb-11 06:51:35

Morning girls xx

lavandes Thu 03-Feb-11 08:03:15

Morning ladies xx

Caz I think you are so brave to even go to the funeral. I don't think I could have done it at the moment. Don't feel giulty about crying for Belle, I am sure everyone understood. Be proud that you went and that you have jumped a hurdle. xx

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