dont know if this is the right place to post this but since its all related to the death of my mum then it seemed the best place.
My mum died when i was 9 (i'm now 36) and i deal with it ok most of the time but my dd is now 9 and i am constantly worried about the same thing happening to me. i sobbed on the eve of her birthday wondering if this would be the last birthday that i shared with her - it seems so irrational to type it but i cant shake the worry.
My mum died 10 days before christmas and this morning i was sat with dd while she practiced her christmas carols and i was just overwhelmed and had to leave her and then sobbed for 10 mins - i'm crying even typing this. Christmas is often a time that upsets me (especially carols - i avoid them mostly!!!) but this year is especially bad.
i think i cant imagine being the mum to a 10 yr old because when i was 10 i didnt have a mum.
think i need one of you to come along and knock some sense into me.
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Canella · 11/12/2010 10:40
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