i am sitting here sobbing wondering why i ever thought i would be a good mother and have no idea what to do??
DC1 is 4 and pretty adorable most of the time. Everyone who meets him thinks he's adorable too. He and i seem to fight like cat and dog all the time.
i shout too much - i do try so hard to stop or calm it down as quickly as poss but he's started to shout back at me as soon as i raise my voice.
tonight he came into DC2 room while i was putting her to bed and wanted to brush his teeth in there. i suggested we would do it in his room as the baby was going to bed. out of nowhere he lashed out and started smacking me, over and over again. i have absolute rules that my children are not to be smacked and that DH and i won't do it. however, i did smack him and am mortified and hate myself for it.
the screaming from him continued for ages, he was still smacking and trying to scratch me. i tried to put him to bed but he was screaming and wouldn't stay in bed/room - he can get out of his room. in the end i started crying in front of him as i was so shocked by what was going on. i took him to my room and we lay on the bed with me trying to calm him down. he slowly calmed down and then out of nowhere kicked me in the head twice - my face was by his feet so i think it was a case of being in the wrong place rather than him trying to kick me in the face.
again, i took him back to his room and it continued until i grabbed a book and attempted to read it - he calmed down quite quickly and peace and quiet resumed. this all lasted about an hour and 15 mins.
i lose my rag so quickly - i need to stop doing that but don't know how. is my DC now reacting to what he hears/witnesses. is it my fault that he's acting like this - if so what do i do??? this has been one of the worst days of my life. i feel sick. will he remember??
have a drink if you've managed to get to this end of rambling post - i'm so all over the place i don't know what to think. i desperately need some advice.
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OhCobblers · 27/05/2011 21:33
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