I had a scan at 8weeks +4 days, baby has strong heart beat ect. I went for my 12wk scan baby had anencephaly, although happy moving around in my belly with a strong heart beat baby wouldn't live after birth. Me and my partner decided that although it would go against what I personally believe in that having a termination would be better for everyone involved.
Last Tuesday I had a sergical termination.
I ended up loosing a lot of blood on Saturday as they didn't remove everything from my womb.
My baby was taken to the morg, and revived a typ of autopsy to determine if the anencephaly is genetic. I'm feeling empty inside. One minute I'm pregnant with a healthy little baby getting ready to be a mum for the first time then 3 days later I'm bleeding out my womb. I will never be told if my baby was a boy or a girl. Family and friends assume I had a miscarriage. I know it sounds awful but I wish I did have a miscarriage, knowing my baby was alive untill I had my termination hurts like hell.
I really want to be a mum and my partner is also desperate for children. I don't know when we are aloud to start trying again. I don't know if it's right to try again, I know my baby was really poorly but matter of fact I literally killed my baby. Would it be wrong to start trying again? I don't want people to think that my angel wasn't important to me.
Don't really know what I want from this post. Just some advice. If you've been in my position. Your thoughts on my decision, and if It would be morally ok to start trying again once I stop bleeding.
Thanks in advance x
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Really struggling with me decision.
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xjasminex · 06/10/2017 01:24
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