I had DS in 2007 Normal pregnancy all fine.
2012 I fell pregnant unexpectedly, was happy though as had been broody since having DS but relationship was never right. At 12 week scan I found out baby had anecephaly, I was absolutely devestated, had never even heard of it before, my heart broke. I chose to have a TFMR at 13 weeks. Afterwards I haemorrhaged and got an infection. Was rushed back into hospital 3 days after procedure. Spent 5 days on IV antibiotics. No problems physically since, emotionally it's been awful.
Myself and DP are going to start trying for a baby November time. I had my coil out one month ago to give my body a break. Still haven't got periods back. I've completly fallen apart, I'm so broody my body aches for another baby, 5 people very close to me are heavily pregnant right now and it's killing me. I'm jealous and bitter, but I hide it! I don't know how I'll be when they are born, I'm so embarrassed to feel like that. I'm terrified.
I've got 6 months + to get my head around trying again. But my emotions have gone crazy.
I vary between wanting to be pregnant right now!!!
Wanting to wait another year
And worrying that I am now infertile, the same thing will happen again, how will I cope, it's not fair etc etc.
Everyone around me has easy straight forwards pregnancys and conceptions. And I'm terrified.
Has anyone else dealt with this, or had a healthy pregnancy after anecephaly?
I feel so alone, I know no one in RL who's ever gone through anything like this. Even my mum tells me to get over it and it's in the past I a ball of anxiety at the moment. The infertility/miscarriage fear is eating away at me.
Sorry for the self pitying rant and sorry if this is in the wrong place.
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BitchPeas · 19/03/2014 02:19
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