Pregnant with second child & VERY depressed.

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I have recently ended my relationship with my partner of nearly 8 years the relationship was so toxic and I finally found the strength to tell him to move out. He hardly worked hardly helped financially and did nothing to help around the house. While I worked, did all the nursery runs and did everything around the house even though I suffer from severe depression I held everything together. He was always messaging and talking to other females over social media telling them he was single and sending really dirty explicit messages and arranging to cheat on me. More fool me for trying to brush it under the carpet hoping everything would be ok one day, I have made myself suffer more.

We already have a 4 year old daughter and after him moving out I have found out I am pregnant. I had my implant taken out on 09/07/19 due to it making me bleed a lot. And I have been caught near enough straight away accidental. I am really down and depressed I feel like my whole life is falling apart like the carpet has been pulled from under my feet. My daughter has just started school and things are changing at work and it's a lot for me to take in. I don't really have any friends and I feel extremely lonely.

The thought of having another child is terrifying me and my mind is plagued with questions like.. how will I cope? What about money? What about childcare and going back to work? I live in a really small 2 bedroomed house I work 20 hours per week and hardly have any money once I have paid rent and council tax due to debts. I have had a termination before and I don't think I could handle that again, but I am definitely not happy right now at being pregnant I really don't know what to do. My family are going to be so mad and disappointed just like they were when I was pregnant with my daughter.

My now ex partner has said the decision is totally up to me and he will support which ever decision I make. But he doesn't help anyway. So I will be basically doing it on my own.

Somebody please help ☹️. Thank you for reading my post x