Experiences?

[SallyAnne86]

Recently been diagnosed with PND. Well as much as you can be via conversation.

My daughter is now 10 months and I've been battling really since day dot. It's come to a head recently.

I wake up with a feeling of dread - I'm living a ground hog day existence - I find naps stressful and find myself praying for the miracle 3 Hour nap so I can get stuff done and have me time. However that never happens and I find myself upset when dd naps for 30 mins.

I feel like I force myself to be a mother and when I look at my partner I find myself wishing I could be as natural like he is with her. I love my daughter. So much. But I can't help thinking she's be better off without me as a mother.

My partner says he understands but his actions say different. He says stuff like life is good and I find myself thinking is it? Is It really?

I'm overwhelmed with remembering everything when we go out-buying all the house hold products to keep our house functioning and then when I say I have no money he says we need to look at our finance. Everything goes on dd! I pay for utilities, water bill , pet insurance - and I bought my self some clothes because I'm too fat to get into my pre pregnancy clothes.

Sometimes I feel so helpless and I don't think my partner supports me and doesn't recognise PND - or that I'm just mental and crap to live with.

Does anyone else feel like this.

[Megglou]

I think I understand some of that. I dread getting out of bed some mornings wondering what day I'm going to have. Some days the thought of my OH half coming home from work to release me is the only thing that gets me through. As for Groundhog Day I got myself stuck in a depressing dull routine, if you have any family members or friends you can see try at least twice a week to break it up a bit? I used to feel like all the days rolled into one another.

Also if you have family/friends who can watch the LO, I find I'm so much more relaxed after having an hour away from the baby and then I enjoy it so much more when I come back.

If money is an issue are there any nice walks near you that don't cost? I try to walk everyday, it's amazing what fresh air can do.

Hope this helps.