Dear fellow mums,
I am probably writing as a release as well as seeking experiences/success stories with taking sertraline or managing depression without.
My son is 7 weeks old and I was prescribed sertraline a week ago but am reluctant to take it.
From reading numerous posts about PND my heart goes out to all those who suffer badly. It seems a collossolly unfair condition after what women already go through with pregnancy and childbirth. We don't get it easy do we!
Therefore, when I compare myself, I think I'm lucky not to have it so bad and maybe this is just how hard it is when having a baby to look after. I'm questioning whether I really do have depression and need to just pull myself together more... but that's probably because it's hard to admit it to myself!
I have had a very successful career and work in a corporate environment, so I naturally like to be in control and succeed. Whereas I've found motherhood very hard as there's not tangible ways to know how you're doing, and have feelings of being inadequate (I know this is irrational) - birth didn't go well and I was unable to breastfeed which didn't help these feelings. I am struggling that I don't know what baby wants/what's wrong (who does, again I know this is 'normal'!)
I can function pretty well: do feel immense love to my gorgeous baby and feel confident of attachment by return, manage a shower and (light!) makeup every day, get out every day, I'm on top of the washing, can get back to sleep after feeds (most of the time), appetite is good, managing to eat well, go out at least once a week with friends... So you may think "what in earth is she complaining about"
In the background: I have a lot of 'noisy' anxious thoughts about everything and nothing, angry and irritable feelings towards my husband, feeling overwhelmed and teary, sometimes dreading the day ahead and feeling trapped in the cycle of feed, burp, puke, change, cry, repeat and the worry about the forthcoming hours of LO crying in the evening (presume colic) which I guess is the depression bit.
None chemical action so far:
Hubby to take at least one night feed to help with sleep
Fresh air every day
Taking multivitamins
Trying to do breathing exercises once a day
Writing down positive of the day and one example of being a great mum
Writing a journal
Reading a book on depression
Mum group or nct group at least once a week to socialise
I do have feelings of wanting to get better on my own, and anxiety about whether it'll make it worse if I take sertraline and then I'll realise I had it OK ....
So I am torn.
Part of me thinks: it's a chemical imbalance, take the pills, I may be wasting time getting better and enjoying baby and life more sooner.
The other thinks: taking pills is not a light matter, it could bring nasty side effects and make things worse, once I start it's a long journey, and what about giving the other none medical options time to work.
Are there any mums out there who would be happy to share there thoughts /experiences to help me decide what to do?!
Pills or no pills?!
Thanks in advance for reading and any responses x
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Snowdrop2018 · 01/06/2018 09:59
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