As title says really... how can I stop hating my life...
All I keep thinking about lately is if it wasn't for my children I would no longer be here... I have 3 girls youngest being 11 weeks. I just feel like I have no one to talk to. I am married and have been for 2 years now and been with my partner for 10 years, but I have no life... this makes me sound really sad but I have no friends, which means I never get to go out and do my own things. I know having kids means I can't enjoy myself like I use to but what I mean is in the last 8 years I have never had a day off just for me... before having my youngest I would still be sat in doors while kids were at school. Even when kids stay with family, I still feel like I can't go out. All I think about is if I went no one would actually notice but then I look at my girls and know I can't leave them. I now look at my partner and just think what is the point in being with him, whenever I try talking to him he is always too busy reading/playing on his phone so now I don't bother trying. I don't think there is anything for us anymore... Last time we had sex was just before I found out I was pregnant, we didn't plan on having a 3rd but got a surprise and from the moment I told my husband he hasn't come near me since, he probably would now but for some reason I'm now too scared to even try sex again. But then I look in the mirror and just think he wouldn't be interested now as I look gross.
Not actually looking for any response I just felt like I needed to write something down
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Hushhush89 · 18/03/2018 12:07
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