Me And my hubby and our 2 young kids all wanted a cat , after a few months of thinking and wondering and umm-ing and arrgh-ing and searching we decided on a 6 month old kitten , we collected her and on the way home I started crying and panicking and we got the cat In and we let the cat settle and DD was up and saw the cat and me being upset , I told her we are looking after it for a bit to see how we get on and we might have to give her back
I thought this would really help my depression and anxiety but it's only made it worse . I feel terrible and guilty I'm now struggling to sleep and I never in a million years thought I would have this kind of reaction to looking after cat as I've grown up with them
I think giving yourself an extra responsibility has not helped your anxiety. Maybe you were looking for a distraction. However, distractions never work for long.
I think the fairest thing to do is have the cat re-homed. Please do not just dump him/her somewhere (I'm not saying you would by the way, but when we are anxious and desperate we can do out of character things).
People think cats are self-reliant. They are to a certain extent, when they mature. But as a kitten they demand so much attention, almost like having a toddler! They can be mentally draining, so not ideal if you are already drained from anxiety.