Hi ladies, just need some advice really on anyone who has had a miscarriage and then got pregnant? Cutting a long story short, we have had 4 years of infertility. First round of ivf worked then I miscarried triplets, 2nd didn't work, 3rd I had a near death issue after they collected my eggs and cancelled the cycle, 4th cycle worked and I'm pregnant with a singleton and 35+4. I've been told that baby maybe measuring behind and I might need to be induced so I'm worrying about that. Anyway my cousin is pregnant from first month of trying and has been singing it from the rooftops since she got her positive pregnancy test - actually 4 weeks pregnant. Social media etc - which I'm not on. I know btw it's not her fault she got pregnant first time of trying - well done to her as I wouldn't wish my life on anyone!!! We haven't decided to find out whether we are having a boy or girl and trying to keep things on a need to know basis. She hasn't, she's told everyone the gender and name at 16 weeks. I know there's nothing wrong with that, everyone is different and I can't stop people from doing things - that's what is said in the arguments all the time. Arguments between me, my mum and sister. I cba to hear about perfect pregnancies and stuff. I'm trying to concentrate on myself but it's hard when I feel that extra pressure and guilt that my mum said she can't celebrate. I don't want pity off people etc in case something goes wrong. We have kept the infertility to ourselves apart from close friends and family however I have found out that my mum has told everyone in the family anyway. I wanted to wait till I was about 16 weeks to tell anyone I was pregnant but my mum told everyone by the time I was 7 weeks anyway (before my cousin got pregnant) I have asked her not to tell anyone my business and she said she can't stop people asking her and 'sending their love' - this is from relatives I don't see from one year to the next and don't really take an interest in me apart from coming to our wedding 5 years ago or at my grandma and grandads funeral in January... so all I say is just to say to them everything is fine. I don't even have my cousins phone number or talk to them directly. So yesterday it turned into an epic argument... as always. My mum and sister think I am ill as I'm not happy like everyone else - my cousin planned her nursery at like 8 weeks, we haven't even bought furniture yet or anything. My view is just because your pregnant doesn't mean it equals a healthy baby at the end of it. My mum also thinks I'm having a baby for the wrong reason - for myself and dh and not the family. I'm really not looking forward to getting gifts off people or visitors - which is apparently abnormal. I don't want to sound ungrateful but we don't need gifts or anything - we are fine by ourselves. The only thing we haven't bought it our pushchair as my mum and dad wanted to buy that - first grandchild and all. We firstly said no but they insisted which is lovely but if they hadn't of bought it, we would have. Our baby isn't going to go without!!!! We haven't wrote lists for people to buy, things like my cousin we have just got on with it and bought what we have wanted. We never have any visitors, never really have and I don't want people to all of a sudden to start taking an interest in our baby like some kind of 'exhibition'. Dh thinks I am ok, I feel I have to defend myself and they defend my cousin and family by saying they aren't doing anything wrong which I understand but they can't understand why I'm not telling the world and his dog. Is it wrong just to keep things private? Anyway I've got a scan on Tuesday (because of the growth issue) and of course against my wishes the whole family knows. I'm thinking of asking the consultant to give me anti depressants to make me feel happy about the pregnancy. I mean it's not unwanted or anything but we are taking it each day at a time, it's not that we aren't happy I just think dh and I darent be in case it's taken away from us. My view now is just to tell my mum as little as possible and then no one can gossip (telling everyone down the pub etc) about me. It upsets me as i feel that no one can see my point of view - apart from dh but even he rarely sticks up for me. No one else knows about the arguments or anything but the people involved my mum and sister just say I'm ill, I need help etc. Breaks my heart as I've put my mum down as my second birthing partner. I really want her there but don't know if it's just going to make it more stressful? My mum for weeks thought we were neglecting our baby by not buying a nursery bedding set, we have opted for gro bags instead and black out blinds, not full on bedding sets - like my cousin. Everyone's approach is different. We have a blanket for our child by the way (not for use in the cot though) in case anyone is wondering if our baby will have lack of warmth. I even woke up this morning still ranting about it. Dh has had enough. My mum said my dads had enough and my head feels like it's going to explode!!!!
What's everyone's opinions?? I don't really have anyone else to talk to, as I said we try and keep things to ourselves, I want to share things but just not everything. Especially bad things when people are just going to feel sorry for me and such.
Tell me if I'm ill please and shall I ask for some anti depressants tmoz?? I feel I must be ill if people are saying I am???
Thankyou if you've got this far, just a bit of a complex and awkward situation at the minute
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ETA: Btw another response I get is 'wait till your baby is born and you will love people coming to see you' to which I say 'no I wont' - I don't need anyone else. Also I've been told I am neglecting my child social development. I'm a childminder, I go to play groups every day I have friends I have made that are mums etc not to mention the children who are here anyway. My child will not be socially stunted I promise you!!!
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Johnskymberlina · 03/07/2017 10:48
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