I don't really know where to start with this I just need someone to help me understand what's happening.
I think I might have PND. I just don't feel myself, I am a sahm to a 3 year old and 7 month old baby. I feel like I'm going mad, I've lost all sense of who I am, my relationship is suffering, I have no libido, half term is here now and I feel so overwhelmed at trying to fill the two weeks (my 3yo goes to nursery 2 days a week) my car broke so I can't go anywhere without spending hours on a bus. I'm eating and eating and gaining weight but can't seem to stop. I feel so down. I've cried every day for about a week now. I feel like a shit mum for not enjoying it more. I can't work out wether this is just stress/anxiety caused by the environment I'm in or of something else is going on. I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember, I've never done anything about it though because I try to be strong and block things out. But I'm just feeling overwhelmed. I feel like my life is shit. My relationship has gone to shit. I feel like I've failed massively in my life and the only thing I have to show for it is my kids.
Sorry you are feeling this way. Please go and see your GP (easier said than done I know) it sounds like some antidepressants could really help you. Hope you can find some way to get through the next week until term starts sounds like a real pain with your car not working.