Ds1 is 4 and ds2 5 months. ds2 is not a great sleeper and DH works away a lot. Im exhausted and been feeling increasingly down. this last week I've just spent crying as I'm so tired. I just feel totally crap but I don't know if it's something a good sleep would cure or if it's more than that.
I honestly have got to the stage with ds2 where if someone said 'I'll take him away for a few weeks' I wouldn't bat an eye in fact id be grateful. I don't hate him, and I feel protective towards him, I just increasingly feel like life was better before he arrived. I feel awful just seeing those words there but I really do. I get no time with ds1, and tired ALL the time so he's often dumped in front of TV. when DH is home we rarely have sex which is causing friction.
I also hate my post baby body and I am just so frustrated that because of lack of sleep I'm too tired to go out running and crave fatty foods. DH is great and when home wI'll say 'go for a run I've got the boys' but I just can't be arsed. I was supposed to be doing a running event today but pulled out last minute as training was so inadequate. am gutted about that as was really looking forward to getting back to it.
I just feel like I wasn't cut out to be a mum of two - I can't cope at all. millions of women do it but I don't know how.
it's also playing on my mind how I'll cope back at full time work come May.
I'm letting them all down, and feel so guilty that I blame ds2 for this.
I really don't know if a good sleep would perk me up or if it's something more. but who do I speak to about it? is it GP? where do I start with trying to get my head sorted? thanks xx
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Pagetta · 20/11/2016 08:33
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