May I please have a hand hold and some wise words? I'm 23 weeks, have been on fluoxetine for the last 2 and feeling utterly shite with it (nausea, cramps, sleeplessness, diarrhoea) and am really, really struggling.
I have no energy to do anything at all: even this morning I couldn't get out of bed when my kids got up, got themselves bfast and then went off to school. I have 3 important things to get done by the end of today (which I've been putting off for day after day) and even though they are really important and today's the last day to do them on I can't even face picking up the phone or sending the emails to do them. They're only going to take minutes each but I simply can't face it and to hell with the consequences. I haven't managed breakfast myself yet (it's nearly noon) as I feel so sick but baby is kicking and tumbling away whilst my tummy rumbles.
DH is away for work until tomorrow night; my DM is coming round later to help with the kids after school.
I've just been made redundant from work (because of my pregnancy, hence having a shit time and being put onto ADs) and I feel so worthless and unappreciated.
All I can face doing at the moment is crawling back under the covers, turning the phone off and staying in bed for the rest of the day. I don't even care about eating. Earlier this morning I even wondered what it would be like to take an overdose of prozac. I even thought about when I would do it (just before DM comes round so she could call ambulance or whatever) and felt huge relief that if I did do it, then at least I would be able to whisk myself away from feeling awful and tired and there'd be more help and support. Maybe even I could get a few days in hospital with it and get some decent sleep (fat chance, I know). Someone else would then have to deal with the other crap and I could have a break. Fortunately I managed to talk myself out of it, but only just.
I know that the ADs take a couple of weeks to kick in and there is usually a period of feeling nauseous but to be honest I feel even worse than I did before I started taking them. I'm terrified that I'm going to do something stupid and Im not going to have the strength to talk myself out of it anymore.
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MrsBlimey · 11/05/2016 12:05
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