Pregnancy, prozac and procrastination(4 Posts)
May I please have a hand hold and some wise words? I'm 23 weeks, have been on fluoxetine for the last 2 and feeling utterly shite with it (nausea, cramps, sleeplessness, diarrhoea) and am really, really struggling.
I have no energy to do anything at all: even this morning I couldn't get out of bed when my kids got up, got themselves bfast and then went off to school. I have 3 important things to get done by the end of today (which I've been putting off for day after day) and even though they are really important and today's the last day to do them on I can't even face picking up the phone or sending the emails to do them. They're only going to take minutes each but I simply can't face it and to hell with the consequences. I haven't managed breakfast myself yet (it's nearly noon) as I feel so sick but baby is kicking and tumbling away whilst my tummy rumbles.
DH is away for work until tomorrow night; my DM is coming round later to help with the kids after school.
I've just been made redundant from work (because of my pregnancy, hence having a shit time and being put onto ADs) and I feel so worthless and unappreciated.
All I can face doing at the moment is crawling back under the covers, turning the phone off and staying in bed for the rest of the day. I don't even care about eating. Earlier this morning I even wondered what it would be like to take an overdose of prozac. I even thought about when I would do it (just before DM comes round so she could call ambulance or whatever) and felt huge relief that if I did do it, then at least I would be able to whisk myself away from feeling awful and tired and there'd be more help and support. Maybe even I could get a few days in hospital with it and get some decent sleep (fat chance, I know). Someone else would then have to deal with the other crap and I could have a break. Fortunately I managed to talk myself out of it, but only just.
I know that the ADs take a couple of weeks to kick in and there is usually a period of feeling nauseous but to be honest I feel even worse than I did before I started taking them. I'm terrified that I'm going to do something stupid and Im not going to have the strength to talk myself out of it anymore.
You need to ring your midwife and get someone to talk to if you are feeling as bad as this. I will say with any anti-depressants you wont notice a difference that quickly, they take at least four weeks to get into your system and even then the one you are on might not be the right one for you. Ultimately don't be so hard on yourself if lying in bed makes it bearable do it, sleep will help. As for eating, try a meal replacement drink so at least you are getting something if you don't fancy food x
Can you call ur midwife/gp tomorrow and ask to be referred to the perinatal mental
Health team? U need more support and someone to talk to.
Don't OD on prozac! I tried that in my teen years. It wont bring u any relief i can tell u that!
I understand that feeling of wanting to be looked after and shielded from day to day stress and pain. But hang in there!!!
Tell ur DM and DH you need some extra support as ur really struggling. Is there family that can take ur kids for a day or two? So maybe you could just camp in bed and rest without pressures?
I hope u can get some more help and the pills kick in asap!
Try to eat even though ur not hungry as it will balance your sugar levels and make u feel better i promise.
Take care x
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