Hi. I am 34 weeks and 4 days pregnant with my first baby. Since the start of December I have been going through a rough patch. It is affecting me physically eg restless legs at night, inability to sleep, fear of sleep, fear of sitting on my sofa in case my restless legs play up etc. I accept nothing I have going on is going to harm me but I just want it all to stop and leave me alone and let me feel normal.
I went to my GP to see about more talking therapy and they referred me to a team of people. I had my initial consultation with them yesterday I told them I was constantly anxious, my past history, how I am scared I have failed or harmed my baby through stress, how I am very sad and upset and tearful all the time, I feel frightened and alone, I am not sleeping, I am unable to relax at all- I can not sit and watch television without violent leg jerks (it looks like im doing the riverdance) when it starts up, a strong urge to move my legs which leaves me in tears every evening.
Anyway. she said she would phone back today and decide what type of therapy might help me etc, she told me any type of therapy would be too time consuming with a new baby to care for and to come back when baby is older. I am not good at sticking up for my self and am very shy and asked her what do I do now then as I really am strangling. she said see my GP and he can give me meds if its that bad. I dont want meds. I am pregnant. I want some real life support but they don't want to give it to me just said they feel I wouldn't have the time with a new baby. But I need some help and I want help but now they have discharged me without even seeing me really. I feel let down and wish I had a back bone. what do i do?