I could cry just thinking about what to write here. I have PND with my second child who is now 8 months old. I had depression during my pregnancy my doc was saying i should go on meds but i declined, I'm not someone who takes medication for things after seeing my mum popping pill for years for various things, just had a negative effect on me. Plus i was pregnant, double plus I'm strong, I thought I can conquer this on my own, surely.
It all came to a head a in April 2015, I had completely changed, gone from a very competent & loving mother and wife to an utter bitch, shouting, slamming things about, and I becoming more and more recluse. I felt so low I had no choice so i saw my doc and she prescribed sertraline.
They seemed to work for me immediately and I was like, wow this stuff is awesome! I actually felt happier than I thought id ever felt in my life, I loved life again.
Three weeks later I started to feel depressed again, but this time it was worse, I sank deeper, hardly able to communicate and I felt suicidal. Luckily I knew that this was the medication as I hadn't felt like this before and started to wean myself off the meds. I immediately booked to see a therapist about the pnd and again initially this worked wonders, apart from massive anxiety I had coming off the sertraline, I was feeling better.
Now as I sit here today I am back in the hole, the evil depression cloud is back and I dont know where to turn. I have no family or friends nearby to help. My husband is the best, although he has never had depression, which on one had is awesome I wouldn't wish it on anyone, but on the other he doesn't understand it either. I constantly worry and feel guilty about the impact this is having on my 3 year old and my 8 month old. I used to be so different we used to go out everyday to different places, now we just sit in watching tv (which I hate) because I cant seem to get out. what am i afraid of?
Also I can only get a Dr's appointment for 30th July.
Please help!
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Spinninghead · 14/07/2015 19:46
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