Hi everyone
I have finally gone to the docs about pnd and feel so relieved bit scared too.
I feel after 8 months of dd being born i had to go. I love my dd and feel a good bond with her, but its everything else. The loss of me as i know 'me', the constant arguments with my dh. The money worries. The lack of feeling/love/lust for my dh (just feel completely numb to him)The hating where i live. The loss of ambition, the resentment of just about everyone (especially my lovely but over - imposing MIL)
I know if i didnt get help for my constant low mood and general hopelessness I may lose my dh amd he needs me too. More than anything i just want to be the best woman i can for my dd.
I have guilt about ending on ant ds as everyone told me not to rush into having a baby etc and i did and now i feel its my fault and im a failure and i have to live with the guilt forever. But on the other hand i feel like the depression is mot related to my daughter at all. As i have a great bond and love her dearly.
Its all so suffocating and isolating and no one would ever know as i have tried to hide it so well. I am telling no one but my dh as i so ashamed right now. Sorry for essay!!
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Madonna1987 · 18/12/2013 20:54
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