Hi, This is my first post so do please bear with me if I go on.
I am currently 28 weeks pregnant. I was on citrolopram before finding out I was pregnant with my first child. I thought I wanted a baby but now I find myself racked with depression and bouts of anxiety (not to mention guilty for feeling like this about my first baby).
I came off the Anti-D's as soon as I found out I was pregnant as I was worried about the effect on the baby.
I have a really stressful job and had been off work with stress/depression for a month prior to finding out I was pregnant.
My working relationships have been difficult (part of the reason I was off) and I found that my job had significantly decreased when I cam back off sick leave which didn't help my confidence at all.
I am now a week and half from Maternity leave and currently taking the day off sick as I just can't face going into work any longer but I do not know what to do! I feel so guilty as I work for a not for profit organisation and I am getting paid to sit here typing this.
In terms of background... my workplace has extremely high turnover, managers don't seem to want to know about problems. I recently got a new manager who seems to want to belittle me and prove me incompetent all the time (this is the main reason I can't face work). She has upset not only me but my other colleague.
I have never been that great at standing up to senior management. I also have a difficult relationship with the group/team head who I have found intimidating and unapproachable. He has sat far too close to me on a number of occasions and really invaded my space. Others seem to think he is great as he is very direct and bossy but I have found his behaviour manipulative and sometimes down right creepy. Other than my colleague people seem to think his behaviour is normal so Ia startingto think maybe it is just me and all my pregnancy hormones?
What I was wondering though if anyone has advice for me - should I risk going back or should I stay at home?
Has anyone else really suffered in a working environment - I don't think that it is just my pregnancy as the job was pretty full on and stressful to start with but would really like to hear others stories or advice on handling the situation.
I don't get along with many people at wk nd there aren't people I feel I can turn to for support with worries or my workload.
I fell out with one of the managers about 6 months ago before finding I was pregnant and I feel like he has spread lies/turned people against me (but not sure if I am just being paranoid!)
aghhh, confused and stressed/worried.
ps - it might help to note that we recently had big redundancies and a merger. so less staff and more work!
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Susie888 · 13/05/2013 12:43
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