AIBU to want to go back to work part time ,study 1 evening but feel guilty for putting my career first so my children will benefit later after I was so strongly against this

[godblessmothernature]

AIBU I have decided to go back to work part time used to work evenings 4 times a week from 6pm to 12.00pm in retail, I was threatened, abused treated like rubbish but I did it so I could provide for my children however was not fullfield.
My son starts school 7th aug he is just 4 tommorow,first child leaving to go to big school I have a 18 month old as well.
I have decided to go back to office work and leave my daughter with a CM who Im having problems trying to find anyone I have a good gut feeling for , this was something I was so against as I never thought I could leave my children with anyone else I didn't with my son, however to progress and build a better future for us all,I know I have to do this so am AIBU for feeling jealous that I have to leave them when I said I never would.and want to be with them but cant becuase like everyone else we need to work for finacial reasons.

[Alambil]

needs must IMO although it is hard

it isn't unfair on dd to leave her with a cm for a few hours a week - she'll love it

my ds has been in wrap-around childcare since he was 20m old because I had to go to uni to get a degree and am nearly at the end of my post-grad teacher training in order to get out of the benefits trap... I felt bad but like I said, needs must....

[scottishmummy]

work is good for self esteem,increases your finances,good for you and children.work is a major social determinant of stability,money

good for you
good for the children