Ok,I know that this is a biggie (potentialy life changing and all that)and ultimately only me and DH can make the decision. But feel i need some opinions from completely impartial people who don't know me & therefore can't let their own emotions/opinions of me get in the way.
Basically, we had DS (nearly four)by IVF. We were incredibly lucky that it worked first time. We also had 5 embryos that were good enough quality to be frozen, these are kept by the hospital for 5 years max. The hospital have started writing to us, asking us what we wish to do with them i.e "let them perish" or use them to try for another child.
At the time became pregnant with DS, i never thought any further than whether or not the IVF would work, never mind whether I'd want any more. But I find that lately i can't stop thinking about the embryos, and hating the idea of them 'perishing' and hating that DS will be an only child & that i'll never have another child of my own to love as much as I do him.
If I put my feelings aside, there are LOADS of reasons why having another baby might be a mistake:
My age (42...i feel it!)
I had terrible PND after DS & still take anti-depressants..it may happen again.
Money...would have to get a loan just to afford the treatment.
Lack of space...another child would mean a bigger house eventually & we can't afford to move.
DH says he he doesn't think we would last through another three years like we had first time (I was terrible with the PND, took an overdose when DS was about 6 months)
and didn't really become vaguely 'normal' till about a year ago.
If all these obsacles weren't there, both DH & I would love another child. Problem is despite all the obstacles, I can't bear the thought of giving up my only chance for another child, whereas DH can. And I secretly resent him for it, even though I know he is being sensible & trying to do what's best for the three of us.
The only time I tried to talk to my sister & my mum about how I feel, they looked at me as if I was mad to even contemplate another child. I know I am probably being selfish, but part of me wants to say 'sod it!' to all the practical things & just do it. Life is precious & if it worked we'd have the miracle of another child & a sibling for DS.
Sorry this is such a long post. I would really like to know what you think.
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...and selfish to want to use my frozen embryos at age 42?
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raffyandted · 25/07/2009 00:08
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