this is gonna be a long one so grab a stiff drink. (then send me one)
im really bricking it. ive made a huge HUGE mistake and i dont know what to do.
i come from an incredibly fucked up extremely abusive background. its amazing that im sane, with a very very boringly normal family life, in fact my life is now so far removed from my childhood that i dont even think about it..until tonight.
my long lost brother found me on facebook. he seemed desperate to get in touch. i took pity on him and i phoned him and ive made a massive mistake. im just not going down this road. the last i saw of him was 10 years ago. i took him in when he was living rough. he was a smackhead. he ripped me off and put my family in danger. ive had no contact since then. im also trying to get into the police - i am a special constable now and i really dont need this shit!
he is now married and has a baby on the way. i rang him (i havnt given out my number but i did add him on facebook so he may well have seen my other contact details) seems my hopes were to be dashed. he sounded off his head. he was spouting such shit from the word go alarm bells rang loud and clear. i only rang him cos he said it was really important, well it was - to him. im afraid not to me - ive managed all this time without him in my life and ive no idea why i did it.
he wants his baby to have a family. well tough shit. my kids havnt had any and theyve done just fine, and where was the concern for my kids all those years ago? i cannot believe this selfishness. and...second bombshell - i thought my mother and stepfather were dead. seems SF is, ha fucking ha, he was a complete and utter little hitler and he deserved it when he dropped dead, but my mother is apparently still live and kicking, and my brother has discovered a new and exciting close knit relationship with her - well woopee fucking doooo. she had emigrated but has now sadly come back to blighty.
i was the result of a fling or two - she hasnt got a fucking clue who my father is and she has been dead to me for 10 years. i thought she actually WAS dead but no - risen from the grave to fucking haunt me. apparently now she is "remembering things" that my stepfather did to me. well good. i hope it sodding haunts her, but my SF is dead and i had let all of this go - i had councelling a few years ago. i made my peace with it. i was doing ok.
if i block my "brother" he will see that ive blocked him. he had also found my son on FB and had been messaging him. ive told DS NOT to message back. im shit scared that if i block him he will come looking for me or worse still contact someone on my friends list or even try and trace me through he police....WTF have i done. im absolutely panicking. this was bad bad news and i should have followed my gut instinct and ignored...
what do i do?
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
AIBU?
to block my long lost/recently found smackhead brother from facebook?
30 replies
pickyvic · 12/07/2009 02:08
OP posts:
KerryMumbles ·
12/07/2009 02:34
This reply has been deleted
Message withdrawn at poster's request.
Don’t want to miss threads like this?
Weekly
Sign up to our weekly round up and get all the best threads sent straight to your inbox!
Log in to update your newsletter preferences.
You've subscribed!
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.