Have posted in bereavement earlier in the week but now sure just want to know whether I am being selfish about next week.
My grandma died last saturday. I am/was very very close to her and missed saying my last goodbyes by 7 minutes but thats my problem/a different story. Anyhow had seen her the night before
My work have been amazing. I took Monday and Tuesday off as compassionate leave. I chose to go in on Wednesday to distract me. I only work Mon-Weds.
Monday and Tuesday benefitted me as DD was at nursery and I had time to grieve.
Since then we have a house guest staying and I have had DD to look after. I suddently feel very over whelmed/tired.
I feel like my grandma dying suddenly does not seem real (I was crying but accepting earlier in the week). Now I keep forgetting that I can not see or call her (used to call her every other day).
The funeral is next week on Weds.
My mum has taken all week off work and will be off next week too. Its different for her, its her mum so its even worse for her.
Basically I want to take either Mon or Tues off work but feel that I shouldnt. Also selfishly I want to take the day to do my own thing rather than any more funeral arrangements. I just feel I want a day to myself off work without my DD.
But I feel selfish to take time out to do normal stuff. i would like a lazy day at home and maybe a swim (not been able to do anything all week). I want time to just sit and think, sort through photos etc.
Also it would be asking a lot of work because I am only part time? I would be more than happy to book it as leave but feel that I owe it to them to be there (we are busy) because I was off last week. But on the other hand that feels so trivial
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pamelat · 19/06/2009 14:17
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