Now my mum has suffered from mental health issues for as long as I can remember, so many of the things she did maybe should be forgiven by me as she was dealing with so much at the time.
This could be a looooong post so to quickly explain some of what happened:
She confided solely in me about her childhood sexual abuse when I was 13 and unable to deal with it or her properly. She continued to confide all her personal problems to me at length. I know she had to tell someone but looking back now I really think it shouldn't have been me.
She wouldn't let me go out to see friends or have them over - I was expected to be her companion.
She had several severe breakdowns, no doctor ever seemed to get called, it was delt with within the family.
She would occassionally send me off to school saying she would commit suicide that day
When I tried to leave home to live with boyfriend at 19 she said she threatened to kill herself if I did.
When I was 21, relationship I was in broke down and my dad came to fetch me. Mum wouldn't let me back in house so I had to sleep on floor of friends house for year.
When I had first child she refused to talk to me or see Ds for 6 months as I was unmarried mother - though in stable relationship and we went on to marry.
Ok, this is starting to sound like one of those rather awful biographies that are so popular now, the ones of miserable childhoods! It really wasn't so awful, we knew she was pretty unstable and didn't take much of it to heart. Crazy childhood sometimes but we all turned out ok and reasonably happy! Only as I get older I find it harder to be so forgiving and feel guilty about that. She is much more together these days but I keep her at arms length and try not to see a great deal of her. She has had the most awful life but think I am angry I didn't have a 'mum'.
Should you just be able to forgive someones actions if they have suffered terrible life events and suffering from mental illness? It's been buzzing round my head for months and I can't think whats right...
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runningoutofsteam · 19/10/2008 23:11
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